J
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3年前
J
3年前
I’ll make it work! 💖✨
J
3年前
One of my faveees 🥺
J
3年前
I am not certain as to when or how it happened, all I know is that the last time I looked into your eyes, I felt neither hate nor love. I felt nothing.
You were the one thing in my life that had been constant the last few years. You used to support me in every decision that I make and made me feel loved all the time. But I never thought that our too much attachment to each other would also be the reason that would draw us apart.
Our relationship was so toxic that you even threatened me that you would take your own life if I broke up with you at that time, and so I stayed. I stayed even if I'm no longer happy. I stayed because I thought you would change just as you promised. But you didn't. We both became the worse version of ourselves during the course of our relationship.
After months of fooling myself, facing you was one of the bravest things that I've done so far. I loved you so much that it had me constantly thinking whether to follow my heart or mind, but as we both stared at each other— your eyes simultaneously telling and begging me for another chance—I finally realized that I don’t deserved all of this. After all the betrayals and pain, we both need a life and relationship that we deserved. Still, I'm grateful for the times that we spent and for the lessons that I've learned.
#love# #secret#love#weekend#
J
3年前
I remember being completely torn between quitting and staying even if I know in myself that I can no longer hold on. I resorted to motivational quotes or advice and even self rewards just to push myself to continue. I thought that by fanning the tiny inner sparks of possibility, it can reignite the flames of passion that I used to have..But I was wrong. I found myself engulfed by this flame that I thought would help me.
Now, I don’t regret leaving the situation that I used to be in and most importantly, I learned to acknowledge my thoughts and feelings, and give myself what I truly deserve.
#mood#
J
3年前
Sad but true 😕
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J： 🥺🥺🥺
J
3年前
But this inexplicable urge to leave it all behind suddenly hits me. Time to recover. Time to get back to the root of myself. Time to get away from the distorted perception of love that I have for you.
J
3年前
We’ll get there 🌱
J
3年前
These past few days have been difficult. I wish I could just freely express my emotions just how I can easily unravel parts of me in writing.
