Eli
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the first layer tattoo, was supposedly my ex's name. but as i was getting this tat, she broke up with me. so, i told the tattoo artist to put my name instead. then it just kept reminding me that i had it the day we broke up. so i had this new Disney tat cover up. this disney princess symbolizes a lot of things for me. but other than those, i love her original story. not the actual disney story. thanks to tainted skin in Crown Point. :)
yo... like seriously fucking tired with all these catfish goin on this app. might as well give up on this app and never come back. 😂😂😂
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Sausiya: this looks like an app for live show
to love someone is no challenge, but to achieve redamancy is a whole different category.
🙂🙂🙂
making gyoza. from scratch. yes. This is how i learn and improve.
#cheflife#
#aspiring#cheflife#honingmyskills#
apparently, my ex started a rumour.
apparently, I'm a sadistic masochist.
or was it masochistically sadistic? what?
because of how our relationship was? no.
because of how we treated each other? no.
because of how our sexual relationship was? apparently!
it's ok, because I know.
but you told them differently.
you couldn't handle me.
you didn't like what i like.
it was always puzzling to you.
and you said, "it was so painful."
that the only thing you liked was
how happy you were with me.
just except for the sex? what? 😂😂😂
well, honey, that's not what you said
everytime you came.
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but hey, it's cool.
what happened in your house,
stays in your house.
or was it just in your house. [/030][/035][/053][/048][/054]
i know i might be able to give you the world.
but i can give you mine.
you'll be at the center of it all.
maybe, of you'd allow it,
you'll become mine; my kind of world.
today, i find out you got married.
today, you hold his name in yours.
today, I'll cry and long for you for the last time.
today's the last that I'll look for you.
today, i heard good news.
today, i heard that you're pregnant.
today, i looked at our pictures.
today, I'm happy to say that I'm happy for you.
today, i thought that it's good that you're happy.
today, i realized i only really cared about you for the past two years.
today, i realized I couldn't love....
not because of you. not because of what happened between us.
as i stared at the ring i bought to propose to you, i remembered that this was for the best. and i realized a lot of things.
3 and a half years ago, while i packed all your clothes, lipsticks, hairties, socks, shoes, bags, bracelets and earings... it was utterly agonizing. i kept that one ring you literally threw at my face. it's ok, i understand. you were afraid of the life ahead of us if you had married me because I'm a woman. to be honest, I've never cried so much in my whole entire life- because i decided to give you all that i could and i knew it wasnt enough.
I couldn't love because of what happens after. I'm afraid to. picking up all of your things was so painful, I couldn't do it again... I've been in a lot of dates, had relationships that lasted less than a month or two. I left the table before i could even place all my cards down. I've tried... with three others and i really had true feelings for them.. but it felt like i had to leave them before anything else happened. I'm a coward, yes, i admit and i wont deny it. I have nothing else to say about it. no buts or ifs.
today, i can finally let you go from my heart and mind.
today... i will accept what comes my way.
may it be friendship or love... even a heartbreak.
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Eli: yup. this is how my day started